Feeling a Bit Christina Aguilara-ish

It's true. I am feeling a bit Christina Aguilara-ish lately. "When will my reflection show, who I am inside?" Oh Lord, I have been watching waaaay too much American Idol.

What I mean is I am having a hard time splitting myself between working and mothering. I like to work, and I know that in light of the economy I should work. And I think working from home makes it even more difficult to wear both of these hats at once since I am constantly multi-tasking. Baby down for a nap, okay, then it's time to write a press release in the next 60 minutes or less. Client calls? I have to book them on Mondays or Wednesdays when I have childcare, so I'm constantly stalling.

And don't even get me started on how hard it is to organize decent childcare.

So, I guess I wonder if I should just give myself a break. Perhaps I should focus less on work and more on my little guy's tiny-but-important achievements each day. I've already had a come-to-Jesus meeting with myself as I recently entered nervous breakdown territory over my client workload. I said goodbye to a pretty significant job because I knew it would send me over the edge. I guess I just don't want to care about work as much anymore.